Shifting Sands....

Once again been slack in the blogging department... this time it is due to the fact that my little world seems to be out of balance with conflict, bitchiness, changes and a general unsettled feeling permeating the atmosphere... oh hang on that was just a Tanky fart... whew nasty!

My work life has become a minefield of snarlyness and "them and us" mentality, with the Troll Faced Bitch's attitude moving up ranks to her boss who I have always had a fabulous relationship with... hmmmm not any more it seems, after said Boss literally ran me over by going through me rather than around me with no acknowledgement of my existence... now this woman is usually lovely, loud but lovely but wow how things have changed... Now my general attitude in situations like this is usually "get over it and move on" but I really like the boss lady and I am genuinely hurt that she is behaving like some high school BFF who can no longer "like" me because her BFF doesn't... Ohhh please how old are we 13????

This feeling of division and snarlyness seems to be oozing out of other areas of my life as well and here in lies my wariness to the whole friendship thing... I have said before I am not a great friend maker, I inherently stand back and wait to be sucker punched by people I have given my trust to. Probably because I have been bitten more than once and so I am far more than twice shy, so I have reached the stage in my life where I do not give out my self as much as I could or would even like to for fear of being hurt yet again....

I know this isn't a good way to be but it is how I have learnt to handle the way woman treat each other. What I would love to see is woman treating each other the way men treat each other, you know sometimes it would be great to be able to just walk up and punch someone in the nose.. smack!... then stick out your hand help them up and its over... They know they have been a cow, you know they have been a cow so one quick smack in the nose and the cowiness is gone...

But alas woman are smarter than that, we poke, we throw snide remarks, we hint at failings and undermine beliefs... we hold grudges for years waiting for the one chance to grab that rug just as she steps onto it and haul with all our might... we are a sad time wasting species sometimes....

Apart from the unsettled feelings, and the permeating Tanky farts, everything else is going as it should with a big weight drop so far this week of 700gms woohoo!!!

The gym is changing owners today and although I secretly was hoping for that new owner to be me (and I did spend Saturday snivelling about it) it is being taken over by a young bloke who seems - at this stage - to be heading in a great direction... so I can't wait to see how this goes.. Main thing for me is that he is more than happy for us to keep a key so my training will stay on track for the comps... whew!!!

Had a wet weekend here and a dead car battery, Managed to hit the beach Saturday for a couple of hours and some shops on Sunday, did the usual Sunday posing class, all perfectly normal and boring really...

SO its time to get ready to go to the shifting sands and see how stable my little world in a box is today...

Still nothing...

to report....

Training is great, I'm enjoying the change of pace with the rep increase, the training becomes more like a circuit workout and although I like to see big numbers in the weight column of the spreadsheet sweating it out with 30 reps of leg press is fabulous too.

Cardio is now 20 mins in the morning and 40 mins at night, no complaints there although I will try and find the time to add a couple of new songs to the Ipod. I only have 20 on there as I found was always pushing the skip button instead of actually listening to a song. But now that I have increased my time on the treadly I need a few more to ramp up to.

My bestest favouritest one at the moment is Bat out of Hell (live version) by Meatloaf, as I find I can run at 9mph with the beat at the start but by the time he is riding is silver & black phantom bike I am up to 11mph.. Yep songs are a definite plus when it comes to cardio motivation. Of course I still have a couple of others I need to just get me through the whole 40 mins but I can replay B.O.OH. over and over and use it as HIIT... Its getting that bad now that I am waking up in the morning with the song playing in my head LOL

The reduction in food has not been that radical, so I am still a pretty happy camper. I hang out for the diet jelly and chocolate protein powder as my final meal of the day though and savour it by eating it with a tiny teaspoon LOL

I do think the cardio may be a bit tougher than I think though as I finished the jelly at 7.30pm last night put down the bowl, told Hubby I would watch a bit of telly as I was waiting for a phone call and he woke me to tell me that UFC was on which means it was 9pm LOL hmmm lucky the phone call didn't come cause I would have been all "what? huh? who? lol

Well got to hang out a load of washing Hubby put on this before he buggered off to work, can't complain I think its the first load he has done so far this year but it sucks into my morning routine of computer time... really how inconsiderate lol

Obscenity!

Well measurement day has rolled around again...

Like I promised I will post the good the bad and the ugly... ohhh ok, my ugly is pretty old and ugly so I promise I won't post that after all this is a G rated blog.. ohh ok I will retract that G rating as well... shit you guys are hard to work with...

All right enough stalling...

After a whole week of toil, sweat, running, weight lifting and the expected food deprivation I have managed to remove from my body a grand total of 1.8mm of fatty goo... sigh... The good news is no muscle was lost, the other good news is I am still ahead of target thanks to my other wonderful weeks, the third lot of good news is....

I now get to do two lots of cardio a day...

HA! see that's what happens when you say you enjoy something, the damn something that you whisper sweet nothings to sneaks up and takes a hunk of of your bum! Hang on I checked this morning and it is GLUTS not bum.. not a lot of fat on that part of me... whew thankful for that!!!

Ohhhhh and then there is the delightful news that my food intake is now going to become less as well (hoping that you guys can pick up on sarcasm...) so I just can't wait to do extra cardio on the less food.. woohooo, yay, whoppee, yeehaaa.. yes this IS still sarcasm...

So that was the numbers for this week... didn't even bother to throw a tantrum, but did travel home with Hubby in complete silence, which since he knows it is his best option if he wants to stay alive, is continuing at this time.

Training is changing a bit as well with the reps increasing so I now have to type up my new workout sheets...

I don't know how people train without these, I watch others wander vaguely from machine to free weights every day while Hubby and I clutch our daily workout spreadsheet with the exercises listed and each set has a line so every time we do that exercise we can compare the weights to the last weeks numbers and note personal bests or days when the weights drop.

I have done this from the very start and can pull out a sheet from a few months back (or even longer) and compare my progress, check to see why we failed miserably one day or blasted the numbers the next week... Doesn't take a lot of work one A4 sheet lasts us around 6 weeks and that and a ratty piece of cardboard and a pen is always with us.. Hello my name is Cath and I am a list maker.. LOL

Got my new drivers licence today and the lady who renewed it commented on the difference in my photo and me so I had a whole new photo taken, gee that just added to my fabulous day. I am sure they have a very special camera made to take abhorrent photos LOL

Well that's me.. got to go do the sheets so I tomorrow can start the next part of this comp prep..

Not a lot..

Once again the blog has been a bit neglected lately... Not because of anything bad (as we know the blogs tend to go quiet when the figure girls are grumpy LOL) but just because I am just living and training and running out of time as usual LOL

Soooo.... lets see.. ummm trained Quads this morning... has anyone else notice that when you are feeling fat they are called thighs but when you are feeling thin they are called quads??? your wobbly bum become tight gluts, and in my case my lack of tits suddenly become "a very cut chest" yeahhh riggghhht lol

Cardio is still running along nicely (hope you all got that pun, would hate to think I wasted that one), now I chose the treadly over the crosstrainer unless I am forced to by other users...

Pre-contest diet is gong really well, my Satan scales told me I had lost 800gms on Sunday, but don't panic I seem to have managed to find 700 of them again this morning whew that's a relief would have hated to have lost them for good... NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly apart from the obvious word anyone of us would use in that situation I just moved on and will wait to see what the calipers tell me this arvo...

shit running late... got to go will let you know the numbers tonight...

New Shoes.. Sad News...

Did the usual Sunday waterfront run/walk thingy first thing this morning, and right after I rant and hum about enjoying running my body decided to show me just how much it could take and ache and hurt and act like its nearly 50 or something... whats with that.. stupid hips... so the walking was longer than the running today but I trotted along with Hubby going further than I have in ages so I figure that the maths probably worked out the same... :o)

Once again we were planning on taking the Harleys out for a play today and once again the rain and wind told us that we were going to have to make different plans... I had mentioned to Hubby that I had noticed the bounce had left my running shoes and wondered if it was time for a new pair...

That and the hint of visiting the Puma store at DFO set his mind racing and his heart pounding as we all know what a total shoe slut he is and so that's where we headed... Even after he had announced that DFO stood for Destructive Financial Outcome LOL

So yes I replaced my Puma running shoes with another pair... I couldn't really find anything that I really liked or felt totally comfortable in in the ladies area and Hubby was off in the mens area talking to the assistant to find the best running shoes, next thing he turns up with a pair of mens shoes which he told me to try and although I really didn't think they looked that great they felt like a dream.... So we ended up with him having some cool hightop sneakers that look like cartoon shoes and I came hone to find that the mens shoes I bought were identical to my old ones except they were white and the old ones were purple... see I just knew they felt perfect LOL

Finished off the day with the weekly posing session, just Julie and me today, not sure what happened to the others but hey we got the practice in so we are still rocking for the comps..

On the way to DFO I was reading the Sunday paper and saw one of the saddest stories I have seen in a long while...

The new Queensland Childrens Hospital is opening the first dedicated Child Obesity Service

This is horrendous!!! Not that they are doing this but that it is needed!!!

One in five children between the age of 5 and 17 are overweight or obese.... WTF!!!

I am appalled, I am shocked and I am incredibly sad at the thought of these poor kids, how can this happen??? This is totally preventable! Surely with the information available there should be no reason for FIVE year old children to reach the stage where they need an obesity clinic.. FIVE for shit sake!!!

What are the parents doing??? How can a parent let their child reach this point and not think "shit I'm totally screwing something up here, maybe I should not feed my kid this shit anymore... Maybe I should make them get off their arse and get outside and live, run jump and play"

What ever happened to "Eat your vegetables - Zero desert till you do!"

What ever happened to "No you can not have that lolly" end of story - adult has spoken...

What ever happened to "Turn that Tv off and get outside to play!" Yes we were allowed lollies but we had to walk to and from the shop to get ONE, just one, not a whole 300gram bag!

I love veges and fruit so much because this is how I was raised, my daughter craves greens if she doesn't have them...

I would given anything to have the ability or the chance to help these kids and to educate their families on good clean food, bloody hell... apples cost less than shit food!!!

How can we help this generation of children so that they will live healthy long and happy lives...

Hell I'm just so sad and wish I knew how I could help... I thought about the ripple effect, if maybe I could reach one family teach one set of young parents how to change their lives so that they were healthy and they kids grew up fit and strong , then when those kids spoke to their friends maybe it would move out from there...

Hell an obesity clinic for children... sad...